infinite nature

below are texts written in Annapurna Base Camp in Himalayas 4,200m.I was inspired by mountains, during 8 days trekking, which i did with Deepa, as a closure of 2008.

CREATION
who am i, whos inside me,i am my creation , day by day, only i create myself.
i am trying to remember that my thoughs are my life! i am god inside me, thank you
god for helping me to remember my i`s, ignite my fire and uncertainty.i am richness , so all treasures belongs to me, all universe, now, always and forever. the ring of the life has no closure,all will be changed, all is changing,the infinite circulation,the breath of death and life, for millions of years, and one second.there is so many experiences waiting for me and behind me.and yes i was here many times but i forgot to remember, i lost my memory, but i can be there in dreams and in my awareness, my recognising that i am only this , do i ask for so much?

PROSPERITY
i want to be now,explore myself, know myself,reach the inner core,be inside me. i want to love wholeheartedly, with no shade of ego, i want to be in union with all, and anyone who i am meeting in my life.deep compassion and understanding to our paths to our search and to final understanding of truth. i want to discover my skills, things i do best, to serve for humanity and be lost in it.i am total in my laughter, dance, tears, study,and my life. i am prosperity.i trust and have gratitude for every second and every day.the god is the body and the presence is infinity.this is my life in this second and one second before is not existing in my mind, dissapears like the moon during day, there is nothing left behind, only memories.now even this are dissapearing , there is nothing and everyyhing , now i can understand what was my fears.

DEATH
105 years , i could say its long , in fact its only 15 circles, every is so amazing, planned so much in advance by some unbeliveable forces.105 yers to experience all life to be ready and get friendly with this last day, last breath , last taste of life. what a miracle it is.more grey hair is covering head, i became more mature, more aware, more experienced, more beautifull, more peacefull, more gracefull and more confused.day by day, second by second, getting closer to myself.i am looking back into the life and i feel peace, all fears of death are gone now, only moment of my joy stays forever, and i trust to keep this memory in the last breath of my mind in the aware second , the last second.i spent so much energy on those worries, and none was materialised.death is my destiny , i am jumping in her gorgeous arms, death become alive in my life, i can fall asleep in total harmony.