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ot experience. except of course when he jumped in thinking that was the last day. so anyway. the moment he's been so anxious about. what he didnt count on was that the water would hurt!!! sting in fact. and it would be hard to balance. but he's a trooper, and determined. so there he was, approaching the sea. and then laying out... until of course he burned his leg so badly that it was extremely painful and it looked like he had pan fried it.
last day of nisarga's insurance, not to mention he just can't stand it anymore. we went all the way up to north goa to the same hospital where he was on valentines, a two hour ride. xrays showed the bone was healed. the cast was removed!
fed at Akash’s, and Nisarga had taken to extra eating as a source of pleasure in his immobile and difficult state, and as a way to numb the feelings that were comming up. The morning he decided to participate in a Gurdjieff movements class he also stopped eating. I followed 3 days after, the day we were leaving Akash’s. I do not have the will power in me to not eat if it’s being cooked around me, the smells, seeing it, knowing others i’m interacting with are eating, etc. But if i can avoid restaurants and other eating places then i can manage, especially if i feel like i’m going to burst at the seams.
tinue fasting in order to sustain my fast. We drank water and fruit juice, freshly made as well as from a box but with as few preservatives and without sugar as we could find. And to my suprise, it was easy! I made it to a week without much effort. Sure there was some hunger the first 2 days but i knew a bit of what to expect this time so it was ok. I got emotional (angry, sensitive, sad, etc.) but i knew it was part of the process so i just accepted it.
nspired. I wanted to do a colon cleansing. We went to a couple of small health centers and asked if they provided such a service, they all said no but that i may be able to get a do it yourself at home kit (a bucket and a hose to shove up my butt basically). I figured i could do it on my own or with Nisarga’s help. We went to 4 or 5 pharmacists but none had the material. We even tried at aryuvedic centers but they said they only do such cleansings under a progressive therapy regime, not a one time full intestinal cleansing; we had a massage anyway. I resolved that it wasn’t meant to be for me this time around.
cess. Ajay, the thetherapist, surprisingly gave us quite a discount and it was the right time to do it regarding our fast so we went for it. Initially Nisarga thought he’d just have 1 session but since it was my first time it is suggested to have 3 sessions, with one day break between each session. Now that math worked out to extending the fast by quite a few days. That was not something i was sure i could do, but he said it didn’t matter, we could be eating normally and still get the benefits of the cleansing; the great majority of people who go are eating regularly. We made an appointment for the next day.
ng the need to use his left leg did not present itself. We waited until we could board a bus where we could sit in the front, so that there would be enough space for Nisarga’s giraffe legs. An hour on one bus, another hour on another bus. then a rickshaw to Ajay’s office. Almost 3 hours after leaving our beach hut heaven, we had reached. The same awaited us on the way back, but under much hotter circumstances. So we would treat ourselves to fresh coconut water before boarding the first bus back, and make it back in time to catch the sunset with some juice on the beach.
y hellish. It was painful, and i had not expected that. It felt so weird. Usually when you feel like pooing or farting you push, even just a little. But in this process you can’t push at all. A tube covered in lube is put into your anus and it’s connected to a plastic transparent hose which is connected to the machine. So if you push you end up pushing out the tube and everything from inside spills out onto the table where you are laying. The machine the hose is hooked up to is also connected to the water source, which is twice filtered before going into you. Water is first pumped into you, when you feel like you are going to burst you say stop, the pumping is stopped and water comes out carrying with it stuff from your intenstines. For a better and more complete explanation of the process and it’s benefits visit Ajay’s website: http://www.vecare.in/
ou. So it’s all left to the water but it doesn’t work as well. As things come out you see them pass through the transparent plastic tube and then through a “viewing glass” on the machine. It’s very cool! Ajay, who was trained in Singapore by the company he bought the machine from, would tell us when he thought something passing was a recent guest and pointed out the ones that looked to him like they were guests from at least 15 years ago!!! Small dark half moon shapes. They were the by-products of bacteria... the poop of organisms living in my intestines! That aint fair, i thought to myself; i’ve got to worry about getting rid of my own poop and other’s too? This is not a dumping ground! And these peices were stuck to the intenstines so that’s why they were that shape. Wow!!!
ested we start eating because by then we had not eaten in 9 and 12 days and had no fiber in us to help push stuff out so the stuff which remained was too solid and had nothing to help push it out. We didn’t really feel like eating, so we just had some grapes. We both agreed to a third session. So much came out! Incredible!!! I had to stop him in the middle of the session, disconect myself from the tube, go to the bathroom and push because there was soooo much! I guess my intestines had absorbed water and it had all been soaking for those previous days and it had loosened up enough to come out.
as feeling nauseous, dizzy, and i had a splitting headache. It took all my effort and consentration to stand and walk. I was in a foul mood. Nisarga was still in a cast and with crutches. I think i experienced what i have heard others describe as a migraine from not eating on time. My brother gets that and i’ve never understood how a body which was already fed that same day could have such an extreme response if it doesn’t get fed again on time. But it does! And mine hit that threshold on day 11! I had not had any juice the night before, only water, so i think my sugar level must have been quite low. If it had not been for the cleansing appointment i would have had a massive plate of whatever food i could find, but i couldn’t eat because the stomach should be empty for the process, so no eating within 3 hours beforethe session. I drank crap juices filled with sugar which gave me temporary relief only. I felt better after the session but i needed food!!!
sing into food by having fruits first and then soups or something like that. We went for mexican!!! I had ceviche and a burrito. The next day i had a whole fish with fries!!! I actually wasn’t very hungry but i knew that my body needed food once a day at this point for at least a couple of days.
now has his place in Goa close enough to Akash’s. Nisarga decided to give it a shot. I said sure, why not, i’ll go too. I had never been to any “faith healers” as Akash puts it, and although acupuncture has now become pretty main stream in many places, i would still categorize CooCoo as a faith healer He diagnoses you largely by reading your pulse. Then there is a technique where his assistants poke a bunch of holes on you with a needle, based on where he says to poke, and then a suction cup is placed around there and the blood is drawn. Maybe it’s my public health background but this reminded me of a modern version of leeches. The longer the marks last the more toxins that were there to be taken out. Mine lasted over a week. Guess i was in pretty bad shape.
round frustrated with having only one useable leg. according to the second set of doctors, the fancy ones in Udaipur, he could have his cast off around now. nothing like faith i tell you! he made an appointment for valentines day to remove his cast, after another round of xrays of course, and proceeded to stand IN the ocean with both feet. he reasoned that he didnt care, the cast was suppose to be waterproof, and he was to have it removed the next day. waterproof as in if it rains or something spills on it, not if you have the ocean coming over you. anyway, he went to bed that night, friday the 13th, with one leg in a soaked cast and a wide smile on his face.
uch as possilbe. he is obviously pissed. poor nission!!! he starts to negotiate with the doctor for less time. ahhhhh, my little white indian! he decides he'll cut it off himself if the doctor doesnt cut it off. he's fet up. hello?!?!?! that is your ankle right? as in what supports the walking process. anyway. ok. so what to do? we have to leave with our tales between our legs.
naging to get us from place to place in a way that was acceptable and feasible for Nisarga and in a way that was also manageble for me, but also getting the bike to our final destination: Goa. So here it is. All reasons to worry gone, over and done with. Even if it takes Nisarga longer to heal and be able to drive, we are in an area where we can relax, have access to delicious food and plenty of fruits, participate in numerous types of self discovery and self growth processes, where we can enjoy the sun during the day and sleep outside under the stars, moon, and palm trees with a nice breeze
. The bike is with us, and we don’t have to be anywhere until April!
he course of my life forever. Given my state of mind and emotions at the time: I was a mess! i couldn’t stop crying for longer then 1-2 hours for those first 3-4 days. Helplessness, guilt, anger, fear, frustration, and so many other inner demons were surfacing all at once and very strongly. But this state of being also left me open, vulnerable, my guard/ shield was down. The universe was very kind to cross our paths at that point, and Akash has been my teacher ever since.
potter, and a Gurdjieff teacher. She is truly an amazing package! She combines eastern and western techniques, mind, body, emotional and creative approaches. At her place in the mountains there is a ceramics studio, in Goa we mosaic the floors and mirrors, paint murals inside and outside the house, and cook up dishes! As soon as i realized that we would have limited mobility for a month due to Nisarga’s ankle needing time to heal, i knew it was an opportunity to work with Akash! No doubt about it.
tled into the large bedroom upstairs (with Nisarga having to hop up and down 3 times per day for meals), which comes with a large balcony which has hammocks and is surrounded by palm trees and flowers. We put out the mosquito netting and take the mattresses out in the evening and sleep naked on the private back balcony under the palm trees, watching the stars and moon slowly, effortlessly, glide across the sky, while a breeze carresses us throughout the night. Every morning for a week i will participate in meditation and Gurdjieff movements from 9-12. Nisarga spends this time on his own, meditating, sun bathing naked, giving himself oil rubs and salt baths, healing. We have breakfast, lunch and dinner here, and if and as often as we’d like we can prepare whatever dish we want. We are not by the beach and there are no tourists around, this is a residential area with dogs and palms. We can always take a 15 minute rickshaw ride to the beach if we feel like it. There is no TV or radio, no internet, and the phone only gets reception on the balcony. There is plenty of time for reading, yoga, meditating, healing, being.
