shouting dervish

fire of my core, flowing in my blood,
red, yellow and violet flames, reaching the existance
i am lost in the dance, only when allow myself,
thats not a mind who does, it`s my heart,
beating every second in different octave,
with the music coming through the veins,
the awakening of time, every second like century,
what was before is forgotten, the fire in me,
who i was is who i am, who i became is who i am,
the moment of shout, reveled my truth, the pain of illusion
and beauty of awareness, i have the faith to follow my heart ,
i wish, i can, i am....dervish

happy birthday to us!!!

a year ago yesterday i took sannyas, and a year ago today nisarga (also known as eryk) did. here are some pictures from his experience, we can't find any from mine. it has been quite a year, quite an adventure... individually, and together. we met quite early on in this journey... and so we continue to walk... and celebrate... and fight and laugh and cry and and and...

gratitude and responsibility

Thank you Mum,Dad, i am here , i exist and i live, thats best gift you could give me, the life, the highest form of love. You created me, i belong to you, my left side is always flowing gracefully like a river and the right is strong like a warriors sword.I cant never forget about that, so many miracles are happening in me, you feel me, you know me, you understand me, maybe better that myself. I cry for you and laugh for you.i am with you even if so far away, i know how much i will be missing you, how much i will regret being far now, one day, in future. Now i know, i understood, that i want to be responsible for my feelings, emotions,impressions.I am my creator and you created me,i am so gratefull for my creators, the cosmic energies, which brought me to this world, you were the bridge which connected invisible and visible world.You helped me understand that i might never see the reality.I am looking in the sky, but its not real either. I see there stars which might not exist anymore. I look in the see and i dont see dolphins jumping joyfully above the water. There is so much that i feel but cant explain to you, but i know that you understand me, THANK U my parents , WE R SO OK .

freedom

Living with gratitude and compation, trust and faith, jumping into deep water, going against all fears and others opinions, living with fire of life, spending nights with the death, touching deepest wounds and relesing those energies into COSMOS, learning and studying world and nature, feeling all senses with joy and laughter, whirling in the full moon with tears of pain and fear rolling down the face. Freedom is the wish to be, to take my responsibilities for my life since 240577 and all lifes before.Feeling compation to my child for adjusting and surviving in this planet to create me , MYSELF. Feeling gratitude to my beloved, mather, father, brother, all people who likes, love, dislike, hate me. Thank you for giving me so much freedom in this life. I am here to experience what is awareness, to drop my mind and life aware, all this are my choices, i make them from the heart, from the most free space, from the temple of my soul, thats where is the freedom. Living free or not, I have this choice every second in my life...

swims with dolphins

we were in the water one afternoon, around 3pm or so and i thought i saw a fin floating behind nisarga as i was facing him and he had his back to the ocean. i doubted myself a full 100% and figured, nahhhhh... that had to be a wave and my eyes are playing tricks on me due to the sun. but then i saw it again. no way i thought. i put my hands over my mouth, popped my eyes out and pointed without making a sound. dolphins were out for their afternoon swim and swimming right on by. we vowed to take a dolphin ride before we left!

so on our last morning we boarded a simple fishing boat with two fisherman around 730am. they rowed us further into the ocean but not so deep at all actually. we stayed out there for over an hour. dolphins were all over the place. all around us. a bit further away a couple of them were jumping all the way up, straight up, doing twists and flips and then diving back in. it was quite a scene. wow!!!


it was absolutely amazing to be out there in the water with all of them. we didn't want to go back to main land, that's for sure. as we were headed back, we saw a team of boats coming out. we were fortunate to have a bit more of an intimate time with them.

thank you dolphins